Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Monday, March 08, 2010

heartache


In eighth grade, I was sitting at the lunch table with my three friends. I couldn't quite hear what they were talking about.

"Wait, who are you talking about?" I asked.
"We can't tell you!!!" C said, snottily.
"Well, then don't talk about it in front of me."

For the rest of the year, C convinced J and C2 not to talk to me. I finished out eighth grade without any close friends.

When you're 14, life sucks. I was already a nerd so those three friends were pretty important to me socially. Down the street, I had three friends who I grew up with, but they found their route to popularity and we never hung out at school. These friends had a pregnant cat.

Depressed and alone I knew I needed a companion. At first, my parents said no. I remember sobbing and choking out the words, "but I need...." and never finished my sentence. I'm still not sure if they understood what I meant or if they just gave in. They weren't ever very supportive of my social growth.

So, August 8, 1993, I spent the night at my friends' house as their cat gave birth to adorable orange kittens. I had claimed I wanted the kitten with the most white on it who was named Sugar Legs. Mom and Dad told me I could not have her because she was the runt and they wouldn't have a runt again. (My previous runt cat was awesome and I still don't know what their problem was.)

I settled on the fluffiest, then named Sunshine.

I was there when they learned to crawl, open their eyes, and to love pets from humans. I brought her home and changed her name to Soleil. She wore a periwinkle blue collar.

My bed was about four feet high and she could leap from the ground up there. It was a waterbed and would pop often from this trick.

In the summers, she'd "play jungle" by lounging in the long leaves of the day lilies. Sometimes she'd jump out and grab your leg as you walked by and then run away, hoping you would chase her.

Through teen angst, break ups, and unemployment she was there with cuddles and purrs.

Today, at age 16.5, she was put to sleep. I am broken hearted but very grateful that she was there with me through the tough times. I don't know that I could have done any better than Soleil.


Monday, February 22, 2010

2010 > 2009 by a long shot

Last week I taught high school French in the district I try to avoid. It went fabulously! The students were impressed with my French speaking ability and the third year students asked all their questions to me en francais as if I were their normal teacher. I loved it and I hope I get called back there!

At the same school I ran into a woman I worked with at the zoo. I'm not sure why I didn't know she was a high school environmental science teacher! I liked her before and now I like her even more. She has my card so I can sub for her sometime, too.

The following day I went back to the school that made me cry. At least one of the office staff didn't remember me. Phew! And my class of second graders weren't too terrible. One threw up and some couldn't focus for the life of them but I just kept giving reminders, sitting with them and asking them questions. No surprise parents, runaways, or awful sub notes. Hooray!

On Thursday, I got an e mail from my boss at the park asking me to be a lead naturalist this summer! I am ecstatic! It means she values me and recognizes my teaching. Part of why I am leaving the environmental education world is because I like to do my job and do it well. I'm not pushy or like to show off. Finally! Someone has seen how good I am and is rewarding me for it!

Also, she knows of a full time permanent job coming up this fall and asked if I would like her to suggest me for the position!! I don't want to give away too many details because 1. I don't want you to apply for it ; )and 2. I'm not sure the agency knows that it is opening up yet.

On top of all this, I get to see my gym boyfriend three times a week. We met outside the gym once, but that was for him to help me with my resume. I won't get my hopes up, but I am enjoying the endorphins of a crush!

Sunday, April 20, 2008

dream

I had a dream last night and my Grandpa was there. He passed away a few years ago, it was really nice to see him again.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Leave No Trace

This is the lifestyle I've suggested to our roommate, except instead of using it in nature, I want him to use it in our apartment.

I cannot have people over to my apartment because I am so embarrassed by the mess. I will agree that sometimes, I contribute to the mess, but overall my things are such a small fraction they don't even matter. When I walk into the living room, I immediately turn around and walk out, or try to go straight to the patio to sit in a small space of delight.

Today, I did a few small things like: empty the dishwasher, take out the recycling and go through the mail. Roommate came home in the middle of these tasks and I proposed this nugget: "If it takes 30 days to make a habit, and we clean just a little more than the mess we make each day, then after 30 days not only will our apartment be clean, but we will also be in the habit of keeping it clean." He agreed! And proceeded to do nothing. I also giggled and said, "yeah! Like, leave it cleaner than you found it!" since we both like nature and know this rule of thumb.

This weekend, I did give my bedroom and thorough cleaning. Since I cannot control the common space, I can control this space and I'll have to put my focus here.